I just went to my last session for this 5-day treatment and I’m now a believer!
The euphoric feeling I got a couple of days ago I got today again about a half hour after the session was over, confirming that it wasn’t the postdrome of the migraine that caused the sensation like I thought but rather a direct result of the acupuncture. I feel the way I imagine you feel on morphine – light, floaty, happy, calm, balanced, harmonious… It’s so cool that a few super thin needles put in the right spots on your body can cause this sensation, I had no idea!
Has it cured my sleeping problems? I don’t know yet. I slept ok last night and very good the night before, but had a lot of anxiety during the days (for absolutely no reason, as far as I know I wasn’t thinking anxious thoughts), which is something I’ve had off and on for the past couple of years now. I guess time will tell if acupuncture really has “opened up” the flow of energy in my body as Chinese Medicine calls it, or if this is nothing more than an endorphine rush that will help me sleep good tonight and then I’ll go back to normal… time will tell.
I had another “holy shit”-moment last night though that I’m equally excited about – I put a couple of drops of lavender extract (the real kind, not the synthetic kind) on a piece of cloth and inhaled it for a minute straight, and immediately I felt the anxiety leave my body, easing me into restful sleep. It was crazy, I had no idea lavender extract could be so powerful. I wish I had known about this natural remedy before I started trying over the counter meds and had to experience withdrawal symptoms and all of that hell… I hate taking pills and stuff with synthetic ingredients, so it’s very comforting to know that all of that can be avoided even in the most desperate of conditions.
My conclusion from this week? Never underestimate mother nature. She knows her shit.
Just discovered this track… a great Paul McCartney remake that I heard in a Todd Terje set on Radio 1.
Love that the lyrics “What’s the use of worrying” perfectly fit this week’s theme of learning how to relax
So last night I went to my second acupuncture treatment. And it seems I may have had a bit of a break through.
I had this headache develop throughout the day and it reached its peak right after the session was over. I think it was a migraine because I was super sensitive to light the whole day and I could barely keep my eyes open as I made my way home, and I also felt nauseated. They say you get migraines when you relax after having been stressed, which was very much the case last night. The head pain was so intense that I found myself doing the strangest things to relieve the pain; pulling at my hair, massaging my face, hands and neck, wearing sunglasses on the subway ride home, stepping barefoot on rocks… It was so aweful and I must have looked like such a freak.
As the headache began to subside, I felt an amazing rush of endorphins take over my body. I went on a walk and it literally felt like I was floating… I’ve never felt so relaxed and harmonious and naturally happy in my life before! It was the craziest natural high I have ever experienced. It lasted all evening and today I still feel very calm and harmonious. At first I was convinced that it was related to the migraine; that it was the body’s way of reacting to the shock of the pain. But I tried finding information on Google about it and found nothing. However, I did find a whole lot of articles talking about patients experiencing a ‘natural high’ after acupuncture treatments so I’m inclined to believe that’s what happened to me too. If this is the case then this is very exciting because it would be a sign that my body is responding to treatment, even if I’ve slept poorly twice in a row now, but that I attribute entirely to the humidity and temperature in my bedroom due to the current weather conditions.
This exciting new development has me longing for my third session tonight… I hope I get to experience that high again!
I remember it as if it was yesterday. I called my boyfriend in the bathroom at my new (previous) job crying, “I can’t work here anymore! I have to quit, I just have to!” He convinced me to work the day out and that we’d talk about it when I came home. At this point I felt I had tried everything; sleeping pills, natural remedies, excersize, even acupuncture – but I was still sleeping 3-4 hours a night, even on the weekends. My memory had gotten bad and I had trouble concentrating at work. My evenings were spent doing relaxing things as supposed to doing fun and productive things, and my soul was suffering.
Fast forward to today. I have a new job since a year back that I love. It’s fun and challenging but I don’t feel overwhelmed and I still have a lot of energy and time left to do music in the evenings. I’m sleeping 7 hrs a night most nights, however I never wake up feeling well rested. It’s as if I never really fall into deep sleep, and it doesn’t take much to wake me up. I still have trouble concentrating and my memory isn’t the best.
So I’m giving accupuncture another shot. Because I want to fix the core of the problem – not just the symptoms. I need to get my body in balance, which is what acupuncture is all about. I’m going back to Dr Nie mainly because nobody in Stockholm has as good of a reputation as her but also because she’s open in the evenings. It’s a 5-10 day process so my whole week will be tied down to this, so I really hope it will be worth it. I deserve it!
So as you can probably tell, this blog hasn’t exactly been priority #1 in a long while. But I want people to know I’m doing a lot better now after the spring from hell and am finally in a place where I can start focusing on music again. Been thinking of song ideas snd starting to plan studio time for the fall with my new band so when that starts happening I will start blogging actively again. Meanwhile if you miss me you can follow me on instagram, @mizzmeloded or on Twitter @elodiemusic . Here are some pix of my summer so far!
This is supposed to be strictly a music blog, but due to my mom’s recent passing I have not had the energy to deal with my music career just yet. It will have to wait a little while longer. In the meanwhile I see a theraputic purpose in keeping the blog alive with my personal thoughts and feelings throughout this difficult process, so here we go. Continue reading →
“Some people can get away with being a**** for a very long time without having to pay the consequences, leaving those around them to suffer in silence. But karma is always a bitch. At some point the party will be over and all that will be left will be a huge pile of dirt and an empty feeling of “where did everyone go?”